I have been feeling like absolute crap the past few days. I have decided to put myself in solitude because my depressing mood could be just as infectious as my normal cheerful disposition. If it doesn't drag people down with me, well then, they are just going to want to slap me! Can't say I blame them. No one likes trying to cheer up a Debbie Downer. I have for gone two birthday parties and catch up drinks with two dear friends. Needless to say, I need reinforcements; sunshine is not fixing this!
Long walks with the Ipod tend to help, so that is exactly what I did the night before and decided I needed a repeat last evening. Strolling down Oxford Street, Border's called my name. That's what I will do; spend the remainder of their opening hours looking through and day dreaming off all the glorious hard and soft backs I would purchase. The book God's were surely on my side last evening and much to my amazement EVERYTHING IS 50% off. Well, hot damn! I wasn't planning on actually purchasing any of the books because, to be honest, I cannot afford to throw money away at the moment (one of many reasons of this particular depression which I will later dive into), especially when I have plenty of books at home I still have yet to read. But who can say no to £3 and £4 books! I put on "one of those days" playlist on the ipod and began to search through stacks of extremely disorganized titles. This would normally drive me crazy to the point where I have had to leave store or start reorganizing...what can I say, I like a bit of order! Instead I took a deep sigh and began to digest each title. I carefully selected a book for all my emotions: love, rage, mourning and a vegetarian cookbook - delicious, organic and animal free food to fuel the soul. After being shuffled out of the store, I approached the cash point to solidify my choices when it then FINALLY dawned on me. This store is closing! THE OUTRAGE! They aren't pushing out old stock for new; this place is on its last leg. Where the hell was I the past two hours?! Enveloped in my playlist and emotions, happily wallowing in my depression bubble!!! But, all these books, hundreds, out on the streets - gulp..EVICTED!
This realization certainly only helped to add another notch on the belt. This is the second bookstore on Oxford Street within two tube stations that has now closed. I tried to feel great about my purchases, 4 for under £20, but couldn't help but feel a sense of despair that bookstores are closing all around me. Technology is advancing so well that it is even putting books out on their asses!!!! What is next?!? Oh, I cannot even think. I love my blackberry and laptop and wifi, but there are certain things sacred!
In an attempt, I took solace in knowing there is the most charming library minutes from my house and right off a nice square outside a church. At least I knew there are books out there that still have a dwelling for tonight!
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Oh my goodness, I would have felt exactly the same way. I love love love my dear friends, the books, screw that Kindle thingamabob, I need the real thing. I have in excess of 50 books (probably 100 but I'm afraid to find that out) that I HAVE NOT READ YET, but I'm still buying them. I love them all. We must exchange titles sometime soon and perhaps, and this is a big perhaps, I will send some to you to save you money - I don't part with these darlings very easily. Get out of that funk - drop my darling Erin a line who had been living the high life way to much and is now back in bed with pneumonia (as I depart for a vacation in Maine with the book club). I miss you! Maybe when Erin flies to see you, I'll come too!
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